My Depression

Hey guy’s

So this post I felt like I need to strip it back and go down to my roots and talk to you guys about something I don’t really talk about any that’s my depression!

Have to bear with me as I never talk about this as I sort of feel a bit ashamed buy it? If you get what I mean.

I have suffered with depression since I was the young age of 13 at the time I was at secondary school enjoying life really and then I don’t really know what happened I kind of hit rock bottom and couldn’t pick myself up out of it! I mean we all have our bad days right?

So from the young age I have been dealing with emotions I didn’t really understand and just been a bit of an emotional wreck.

Many of you may or may not know I left school at 14 this was partly to do with my depression and partly to do with being ill. From the age of 12 I pretty much lived in the doctors with little things like ear infections chest infections and sinusitis. I was put on medication by the doctor and had nothing but trouble I had constant blood test and then found out my liver wasn’t in an amazing condition so I was battling that as well so this made me feel even more depressed.

At 15 I discovered the women who brought me up (my aunt) had cancer and they couldn’t treat it! Her wish was to die at home so we had everything put into place so she could be looked after at home! I stepped up and cared for her every day while everyone was at work. The hospital gave her a week to live after she left hospital but she lived 8! She was with us to plan our Christmas and wrap all presents and unfortunately died on the 15^th December!  From then on I was lost I couldn’t work out which way was up (if you get what I mean?) I didn’t feel I had a purpose I didn’t have anything to stick around for! I will be honest and I will admit I tried to take me life a few times. I won’t go into how or why but I had given up on myself.

As time moved in I wasn’t improving so eventually the doctors offered me medication so I went on it from 16/17 up until November last year!  Shortly after coming off the medication my Nan was taken ill and was in hospital. It was only supposed to be a short term stay, turned into us unfortunately losing her in January this year.

Even though times were tough I struggled through and can say I still haven’t gone back on medication! Yes I have bad day (more than I have good) but I have learnt that you have to cherish every moment you have and enjoy what you have! Happiness isn’t given to you, you have to find it and work for it!

So here I am 21 and looking at life in a whole new view the depression hasn’t gone away, I just don’t let it control me anymore!

 

Kirstie-x

Beauty event

Hey guys just thought I'd do a quick update lol tonight I'm going to a beauty event with a friend really excited!! Ill get as many pics of the event as I can xx

New Year's Eve

Hey hunnies,

So I just thought I'd write a post to say happy new year before we all get caught up in the madness!! I haven't got much planned for my new year just a few drinks and a few DVDs with some mates as I'm not feeling the whole party feel tonight!

I hope you guys all have a great New Year's Eve and have a great 2013 and brings you all your dreams!

Happy new year

Kirstie.x

My Teeth Cleaning Routine

Hey, So as you may know I work in a dentist and along the way in my journey to where I am now I’ve picked up a few tricks along the way. I used to swear by my good old trust manual toothbrush and whatever toothpaste was on offer at the time and I have to admit I didn’t really brush for 2 minutes like I should twice a day. So after a while I thought I’d take in some of the advice and change a few things. First off I went and brought myself an electric toothbrush because a) it does half the job for you b) most have built in timers anyways c) gives a more spot on clean. The tooth brush I invested in was only a cheap one as I thought it wouldn’t make much difference so I brought myself the Oral B vitality. I didn’t have many reasons to buy this tooth brush we just sold it at work and I thought hey if we sell it must be good.

also at work we encourage all our patients to floss and I felt a bit of a hypercritic telling people to floss and I didn’t so again I just picked up a floss we had at work and put it to the test I always thought it was a complete waste of time but ohh my days the difference is amazing I feel like I have nice clean gums all the time now.

while on the line of flossing I also tried out some brushes we sold at work called tepe brushes, they come in different size for different size gaps and again I didn’t really get the point but ohh my goodness I love them I always carry one in my purse now in case I get food caught or something they are amazing!!!

So at the beginning I admitted I never stuck to one toothpaste ever. But after getting a sample from work I got stuck on the oral b pro-expert I love it and it’s not that expensive either

after suffering a bit of sensitivity a while I go I was told by one of our dentist to use a high fluoride toothpaste so I invested in the Duraphat 5000 which you can only purchase from the dentist now I believe but it’s amazing it stop my sensitivity and worked wonders

so guys that was a very quick rundown on my daily dental care i will do a video on it soon and if u have a questions feel free to ask hope your all ok Kirstie-x

Last day in Cornwall

Hey,

So today is our last day in sunny Cornwall! And to be fair it's not been a bad day so far we went to Newquay this morning as I have never been there or any of Cornwall really so we've been trying to cram as much as we can into the little time we've got! So we walked around the beach and harbour and looked in all the little shops ( as seaside shops are always nice to look around) and now as I'm writing this were just driving around looking at the scenery ! Very pretty I must say!

Ill check in with you all later

Kirstie

Weekend away in Cornwall

Hey guys so I know I never ever blog these days so I've just decided to download the app and pop it on my phone. So as the title suggests im on a weekend away in Cornwall as I write this! Partner driving got his cousins in the back and I'm sat here writing this little blogpost for you guys!!

So basically Thursday night my partner and I drove all the way down to liskeard to see his cousins and since the moment I arrived on Thursday we haven't stopped we've been to trago mills looe boscastle port Isaac port Quinn rock and all the places around there! Taken some amazing pictures there's some amazing places and views around here!

So after a long day I'm going to get some sleep before going out for a bit of dinner! Talk to you soon

Kirstie

Beauty Loves Recently

Hey, so i know im totally crap at keeping this up to date but half the time i cant even remember what i've come on here to do but today ive decided while im sat having my lunch im going to run through a few of my favourite things over the last few months as i havent been making videos recently. So beauty products since ive got a job have mainly been the same everyday but ive found a few new things that im loving recently 1) the MUA undress pallet 2) fallen back in love with my volume million lash mascara 3) eyelash curlers used to never use these but now love 4) urban decay 24/7 liner in zero 5)bourjois chocolate bronzer (not sure thats its real name but meh) 6) mac bary study paint pot 7) mac creme cup lipstick 8) CK lipgloss in spun sugar 9) mac florida blush 10) collection 2000 lasting perfection concealer Perfume of the moment is Juicy Couture Perfume Shampoo VO5 Treatment Boots coconut and almond Lee Stafford Growth macadamia Treatment I hope you guys are all well and ill hopefully be doing a video soon LOVE Kirstie-x